come on!!

u said nothing can change ur  feelings..

so let's see how long u can stand this..

it's only a matter of time..

i got something that will bring u alive..

so dont stop running boy

u can never make it right if u dont try hard..

i dont need to cause pressure..

but somehow i cant just let u go on while u're living this lie..

juz let it out,your cover will blow sooner or later..

well,it's juz not my style to let this pass me by..

don freak out,juz breath n do it n say it!!

if u dont,u'll lose her forever!!

juz tell her how u feel dude!!

oh boy,this is the reality of life n u juz cant go on like this!!

another he??

OMG!!tadi jumpe fb die kot!!!

muke die innocence n kiut!!!

waaaaa,comel!!!!

ehem2,biase la ni minat2 org..hahahaha

minat je pon,xde sape mrh an??hihi

xkesa la org nk kate ak gedik ke gatal ke,ak suke tngok muke die..haha

XD

NANGES!!!

recently ak slalu nanges sbab jelez abang2 ak leh balik umah time raye cina ni..

bru tadi diorg smpai umah..

ak plak xleh balik.....

tperangkap kt palam ngan keje btimbun-timbun..

diorg cuti sminggu..

ak cuti 4ari je...

ak jelez!!

ak nanges!!!

so wat ak nanges,xkesa la org nk kate ak manje ke,gedik ke,ak tetap nk nanges sbab ak rindu diorg!!!

kalau ak tpon diorg,mesti ak akn nanges coz sebak..

abg ak siap ajak balik skali ngn diorg,naek kete skali...

tapi...

dsebabkan quiz,ak tpaksa stay kt PALAM ni...

dsebabkan lecture,ak tpaksa stay kt PALAM ni..

dsebabkan tutorial,ak tpaksa stay kt PALAM ni...

I MISS MY MOMMY,DADDY,LITTLE SISTERS,LITTLE BROTHER,BIG BROTHERS!!!

wahai abang2 ku,ak JELEZ ngan korang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AK NAK NANGES!!!!!!!!!

BLG-someone like you

I'm wearing thin, I couldn't tell you the city I'm in
The streets and the buildings and places I've been
Or when the stars go when it's daylight again
Or where the time went, oh, who can save me now?

My life in the rear view, I'm runnin' from *****
Don't know where I'm goin' to
I got nothin' to lose, I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

So sing me a song I know all the words to
And I'll sing along, could you be my savior?
I've been out here too long
And I've just been lookin' for somewhere to belong
Barely holdin' on, so can you save me now?

My life in the rear view, I'm runnin' from *****
Don't know where I'm goin' to
I got nothin' to lose, I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you

When the stars explode and I'm all alone
When they start to see the smoke
When I've finally burned out
I'll need someone to carry me home safe and sound

My life in the rear view, I'm runnin' from *****
Don't know where I'm goin' to
But I got nothin' to lose, I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you

My life in the rear view, I'm runnin' from *****
Don't know where I'm goin' to
I got nothin' to lose, I'm fightin' my demons
Been lookin' for someone like you

I've been lookin' for someone like you
I've been lookin' for someone like you



ini kenangan dulu.....

ayang n baby

this post is special for ayang n baby!!!!

ayang n baby

ok,here it goes..

spnjang ak mnetap kt palam ni,ak rapat ngn due bdk ni kan,due bdk ni kan,diorg kan,nakal sngat2!!!

sorg ak pggil ayang aka miss nureen!!!

sorg lagi baby aka melly!!!
oh ye,ak dnobatkan diorg sbgai abang!!haha

kalau dlm bhasa klntan,1 pkataan je ak leh describe diorg..apekah??

tet tet...

SSUMAK!!!!hahahaha

diorg hanya 'ssumak' time hangout ngan ak je kot(mnurut pngakuan diorg la)...hahaha

tau x 'ssumak' 2 ape??

ape ek,xpndai lak ak nk describe dlm bhasa baku ni..emm..

mksud die havoc kot,lbih dri 2 kot..hahahaha

ak da knal diorg sblum ni,dmanakah??

kt MMP!!!highskool ksayangan kitoram kt klntan..heheh

dulu kenal,biase2 je..xde la rapat cam skrang(skarang da over rapat kot,smpai wt pape pon xmalu n sempoi je)

n dulu knal sume kontrol2 sket prangai coz xrapat sngt,hangout pon jarang giler sbab kitoram ade geng sdiri mase 2.boleh dkatakan malu2 lagi la kot time 2..haha

smpai je palam,kitoram stat rapat,bdk mmp kt cini sket je..5 org je asenye bdk asasi dari mmp,AGAK sikit!!

mybe dat's y kitoram rapat,well memg havoc ah kalau da hangout skali sbab da lama knal pastu jnis prangai nakal n xbleh duk diam sume....

shopping with ayng n baby!

pastu kalau da hangout,emg ckp klntan tros r sbab ngn diorg je ak leh ckp klantan straight!!

kalau ak pegi fakulti,masuk je klas msti kn ckp luar..

ayang ni jnis lembut,giler lembut ah!!

dulu kt skool,tiap kali jmpe die msti ak jadi snyap sket n wt2 lembut coz die lmbut..segan kot..hahaha

lembut+ayu,tiap kali nmpak die kt skool mesti puji die dpan kwn ak yg die ni lmbut,ayu n pndai!!..

ayang emg pndai,alwys got straight A's,jelez!!!

pointer sem1 pon tggi,tp study laz minit,,tabik ah!!

tp bile da smpai palam,ak leh nmpak prangai die yg sbenar..hahahaha

apekah??

dlm klembutan die,ade jgk kkasaran n totally different from wat i thought before..tunjuk belang oh!!

bile da bnyk kali hangout ngan ak,bru ak tau die ni jnis havoc jgk.

so ak pon tkejut jgk ah,x expect die cmni..

tp dlm kkasaran die,still LEMBUT!!!

kalau die jerit pon,still lembut!!!hihi

die ckp ak sorg je yg leh thn ngan prangai die cam baby..weeee

watever it is,i love u ayang!!

ayang gedik!!

die suke ulat!!saye xsuke!!!

projek mmncing ngan ayang,smpai skrang xjadi..haha

baby plak emg dari dulu lagi tserlah 'ssumak' die..hahaha

jnis sempoi,lawak plak 2!!

tiap kali nk mrh msti xjadi,coz tngok je muke die msti nk tsenyum n tgelak..

baby melly

hahahahaha,ak nk describe cmne pon xtau..

sape2 yg hangout ngan die emg xpuas ah,sure slalu gelak.

well,i love u too baby!!!

then bile gabung ayang n baby,TRANSFORM!!!!

tciptalah mechanism yg mbuatkan ak gelak spnjang masa,HAHAHAHA!!!

ak ingt lagi mase kitoram ngah study untk final sem1..

study pg smpai mlm skali ngn diorg,tido pon skali..ngehehehe,1 katil 3 org kot!!

cmne leh muat pon ak xtau,well kitoram kan kreatif!!hahaha..

mase kitoram ngah study 2,mcm2 la kluar dri mulut diorg,wt lawak xabes2!!

tngah study pon gelak2,xabes2 ngan lawak antarabangsa diorg 2..

study pizik,teruk an??

time study untk final 2,ayang ckp putus asa..baby ckp xboleh,kn truskan!!

smpai skarang kitorm gune ayat 2,"ak putus asa da"..ngehehe

n ak still ingt the night before biology test for final,kitoram wt PROJEK!!

projek apekah??..ade la,tut tut..haha

xkan ku lupekan mlm 2,sngat indah..

abang n ayang kt gym!!

"malam masih muda",inilah yg slalu dsebut oleh diorg time ngah study..

xkan ku lupe..

"ak putus asa"..

xkan ku lupe..

"ayang"..

xkan ku lupe..

"baby"..

xkan ku lupe..

ak sayang ayang n baby!!!!

baby blnja mcD

gmbar ak pon kena ade!!

boooohhhh!!!!!

i.....

"Never look back," we said

How was I to know I'd miss you so

.......

love is pain for sure,

but happiness always comes along with it..

oh....

haloooo!!!!

lame xupdate,rindu ase...

bnyk bnda nk cite,tp mls nk taip..so,i'll juz wrap it up..

22 jan 2011,saturday..

ak pegi grand dinner asasi sains,seriously everyone looked so dashing n enchanting!!

ak??ak pakai simple2 je,xpndai r nk bgaya+malu..haha

dngan bselendang(1st time pkai slendang wuuu!!) n bbaju mini kurung n no ANY SINGLE make-up,the way i dressed is kinda way SIMPLER than the others!!

everyone looked so elegant smpai ak sdiri pon xknal kwn ak..hahahaha

tp siyes diorang nmpak cantik n encem!!

pastu kitorm dpt goodie bag,n ak dpt tngok bdk2 asasi perform dance kpop!!stylo!!!..tp,tngok bdk2 pompuan perform,not appropriate i guess..laki xpe je..

mlm 2 tido kt quality hotel ngan miss nureen n housemate2 coz mls balik ngan bas uitm,crowded ngan bdak2 neh..

  ku syera n miss nureen-grand dinner!!

24 jan 2011,monday...

ak dpt result test math,alhamdulillah better than sem1 punye..

i'm happy!!!!..it lift me up in the sky!!!!(yessss,ade improvement!!!!)

but still very frustrated with chemy n phy!!...HAMPEH!!!

25 jan 2011,tuesday...

1st time ak pakai tdung ready-made pegi klas,feel kinda weird a bit but that scarf makes me feel comfortable wearing it..

plus ak rase pipi ak smakin bulat bile ak pkai tdung 2,hahahaha!!! XD

ak nk beli lagi tdung 2!!!!!!!mommy,little sisters,nanti raye kite pkai tdung 2 ek!!!

n also today i feel like the cold is getting worse,my body temperature is getting higher!!i dont like cold!!!..

mybe dis is a new virus,my immune system is having it's 1st war with this virus..

the effector cells are fighting with the virus inside my body!!!

soon,the memory cells will protect me from the upcoming 2nd infection from this virus..

yeah!!go go effector cells!!!fight for me!!!!..i LOVE u effector cells!!!

uhuk uhuk... T___T

nk cadbury.......

                                                                   

ingt lagi x sape ni???wani!!!

PasT sO deeP...

hari ni tibe2 tringat zaman lpas spm...

actually tringat game truth or dare..game ni ak maen kt tepi pantai ngan kwn2 kex..

only acers were there at dat time,kitorang ngah bpiknik aritu..

lpas maen air,tibe2 abah(not my dad oke,paggilan abah is only for fun) n mije n yg len nk men truth or dare..

mule2 ak excited coz xpenah maen bnda 2,hahaha..

time 2 jgk ak ade like someone,boy B..

boy B tibe2 dduk tepi ak time 2,haha..

die pun nk join skali,dgan bju sluarnye yg basah kuyup lpas main air pntai 2,die dduk tepi ak..

time maen 2,ade la kena kt ak n die...

ak xingat ape soalan yg kena kt die,yg pasti soalan 2 pasal ak..

malu kot,semua tngok kitorang time 2..

time die nk jwb,mesti die tngok kt ak..(segan ak)

time ak kena,diorg tny camne boleh bkenan kt boy B tu..

hampeh diorang,saje je knakan ak..

ak cam serba salah nk jwb,smbil pikir ayat nk jwb ak tngok kt boy B..

kitorang bpandangan,boy B snyum kt ak..

sume excited dngan senyum2nye tggu ak jawab...

ak pon jwb jela dngan mngarutnye,kasi diorg frust sket..haha

tp siyes,emg tebal muke nk jwb soklan diorg..

dh la boy B ade kt tepi,malu ak..

tahan je,ngahahaha..

tp itu sume kisah lama,boy B pon xde da..

pegi la kau jaoh2,ak xnak amek tau pon sal ko..

oke dat's all,conclusion nye ak emg da tkut nk maen game truth or dare..
tp bez jgk game 2 kalau nk kenakan org..HAHAHAHAHAHA

song for this post-lifehouse:blind

RUN!!!!!

HAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA

HIHI,nape ak gelak??

nk tau nape??oke,here it goes..

petang tadi housemate ak ajak pegi mcd..

xde la jauh sngat..

mase kitoram balik,kitoram jln2 smbil tggu bas dtg,,

tngok2 sampai kt selekoh da,n tanpa dsedari ade something jln skali ngan kitoram kt tepi..

siapakah??apakah??...puppy!!!!rupe2nye ade puppy cute jln skali ngan kitoram..

kitoram cool lagi,trus jalan dngan muke slambanya mcm taiko..

tibe2 ade sorang makcik ni lam kete kt traffic light sound kitorang,"adik2,hati2 ngan anak anjing 2,bahaya!!"..

ak blur lagi mase 2 coz xdengar jelas ape yg makcik 2 cakap..

ak hny dgar makcik 2 kate bahaye..ak pon blur,nape bahaya ek??

diorg sume da cuak,ak pon ikot cuak jgk ah...ye r,xkan nk wt blur sorang2 cmtu an,hahaha..

pastu housemate ak ckp puppy 2 bahaya,ak tkejot giler r...

ape lagi,RUN!!!!!

trus sume lari coz takut,at first xnak lari coz tkut puppy 2 kejar tp puppy 2 da ikot kitorang so kitoram lari jela..

kitoram pon lintas pegi sberang tp puppy 2 lintas jgak ikot kitorang..

pastu kitorang pon lintas la balik,but puppy 2 lintas jgk!!

gedik siot puppy,nk jgk maen kejar2 ngan kitorang..ape r!!

pastu kitorang truskan marathon kitorang,lari n lari n lari..

smbil lari kitorang jerit n gelak coz ase cam lawak..hahahaha

pastu puppy 2 bhenti n patah balik..kitorang pon lega la..

so truskan prjalanan,jalan dengan lenggangnye coz puppy 2 xkejar da..

haha

tibe2 arrrgghhhhh,kitorang tngok blakang n nmpak puppy 2 tngah blari klaparan kejar kitorang balik!!

kitorang pon ape lagi,lari pulak la jawabnye,..sigh,hampeh punye puppy!!

kitorang lari sana lari sini,jerit sana jerit sini,gelak sana gelak sini..

ase cam nk tguling2 tgelak2 da kt situ..hahahaha XD..

tibe2 PON PON!!!came the saviour of the day!!!

kitorang dngan excitednye bpaling nk tngok prince charming dtg ngan kete ferrarinye,tp HAMPA!!!!!

rupe2nye abang pakcik 21 tahun datang ngan transport mewahnye yg bwarna hijau btayar 8 yg besar...BAS RENGIT LOL!!!!

HAHAHAHAHA,prince charming ngan ferrari la konon..tngok2 bas rengit!!hahahahahahaha

frust kuasa due..hahaha

tp at least die slamatkan kitorang,gudbye pathetic puppy!!!!!

pastu die bhenti kt bwh tgga batu cave,frust ak..ingtkan nk anta smpai r4..cess..

tp lpas kitorang trun dari bas,tibe2 die tny nk naek mane sbenarnye,kitoram pon ckp la ats..

die pon suruh kitoram naek bas 2 balik,ckp nk anta kt roundabout kt ats2..haha,terbaek abang blonde!!!dh la free of charge,btuah2!!

trun je dri bas,kitoram jln dr r1 smpai r4..

pastu an,jeng3!!!!

ak tnampak adegan daTING!!!!

n ak knal laki 2,kwn ak kot!!!!

ak nmpak die jln tepi pompuan ni,hahahaha..tp ade laki kt tepi kwn ak 2..haha

xkesah la ade laki laen,jnji die jln tepi pompuan 2..dating la 2,hehe..

owh da pndai ek,kalah saye..hehehe

die xsedar ak jln blakang die..smpai je kt r4,die bpaling n ternampak ak kt blakang..

haaaaaaa,ak pom trus bagi senyuman paling sweet menawan n mngancam kt die..hahaha XD

(da ade modal nk kenakan die nnti,muahahaha)

die tkejut,trus tepuk dahi..n ak boleh agak ape die ckp time die tepuk dahi 2,"oh,busted!!!"

hahahaha,nasib la kau...

awak,jgn mara ek saye cite ni..hehehehe

huh,wat a day..tp lawak,ak suke!!!hahahaha

Cold as yOu

You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight 'cause I need to feel somethin'
And you do what you want 'cause I'm not what you wanted

Oh, what a shame
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away
No use defending words that you will never say

And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there lovin' you and washed them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

Oh, what a shame
What a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away
No use defending words that you will never say

And now that I'm sittin' here thinkin' it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

You never did give a damn thing, honey
But I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody
If I died, died for you, died for you

Oh, what a shame
What a rainy ending give to a perfect day
Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counted all the scars you made

Now that I'm sittin her thinkin' it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you

miSbehaving...

i'm a heartbreaker..

i already warned u....

don't blame me if i break ur heart someday...

i'm sorry...

daddy....

ktakutan....

takut?takut ape?antu???perrgghhh,ape nk takut ngan antu..

takut...

ak takut..

due hari lpas mommy ak anta msj kt ak,die ckp sdara ak mninggal,al-fatihah...

bile tringat msj mommy ak 2,tibe2 ak tringat kt daddy ak..

ak pnah mlalui saat2 yg mnakutkan where i saw my daddy dying in front of me..

tiap2 hari bgn dr tido msti tringatkan keadaan daddy..

hari2 akan tngok die tlantar ats katil kt umah..

pnah tbayang yg daddy akn tggalkan ak n pegi jauh dri dunia ni..

slalu nanges stiap kali slpas amek air smayang untk daddy..

ak tau daddy akn rase sakit everytime ak sentuh die even softly..

stiap sentuhan will cause pain,tp da tpaksa nk wt cmne..

ak boleh nmpak muke die bkerut2 tahan sakit..

die sggup thn sakit demi mnunaikan ibadat kpd allah..

at that time,ak pnah tny mommy ak,"daddy cmne??,bile daddy nk sembuh??",,mommy jawab "kak,daddy hny tggu mase je..doa bnyak2 la kak"..

trus ak nanges lpas mommy ckp camtu..

ak pnah imagine ak brada d tempat daddy,cannot do anything on own,cannot move freely,feel pain everytime people touch him even softly,xleh tido nyenyak..

ak tau ak sdiri tkut kt daddy,tapi ak tetap syg die..

even daddy garang,slalu marah2 ak,ak tetap syg die..

ak xnak hilang daddy,tanpa daddy hidup xbermakna..

saat2 daddy dekat dngan kmatian,ak slalu je rase takut coz ak tau daddy akn tggalkan ak bile2 mase je time 2..

but thank god,daddy sembuh bberapa bulan lpas 2...

tiap kali daddy mrh ak,ak tringat mase2 daddy sakit smpaikan ak xkesah daddy nk mrh ak tiap2 hari coz ak tau daddy mrh ak pom sbab daddy syg ak..

so sape2 kt luar sane yg benci daddy korang,slalu lwan kate daddy korang,cpat2 la mintak maaf kt daddy korang..once you lose him for real,u'll neva see him again,u'll neva hear their voice again,n korang xkan rase kasih syg dri seorg laki bgelar daddy anymore.... 

HAVOC!!!

tibe2 ade mood nk cite sal membe2 a.k.a bdk b2 kt palam ni,hehe..

ak slalu pegi klas ngan 3org budak ni..diorg adalah twins n wani..the twins are reesha n shana,cute kot..ak da bape kali suh diorg pakai baju same,tp diorg xnak.diorg emg minat giler pink,almost sume brg diorg pink.haha

twins!!

wani is kinda cool,sporting n a bit naughty..haha,slalu je ajak ak jln2.die ni minat korea!!!slalu dngar lagu korea..sem2 ni kitoram bdua da bape kali kuar dari lecture pijik juz untk ponteng for about half an hour(kononnye nk pegi toilet la)..nmpak sngt xsuke pijik..hahaha

diorg btiga ni pndai kot,IQ tggi!!!tabik r korang!!haha

ni wani,budak bijak!!

lpas 2 ak nk cite sal wana plak,die ni 1 aras ngan ak kt ostel..ak slalu je pegi jenguk die kt bilik die(maklumla bosan smpai kuar umah sdiri pegi jln2 umah org len).haha

wana sempoi,spotim!!!penah bagi susu dutch lady kt ak,ngehehehe..

kdg2 die dtg bilik ak,lepak2,on9,borak2..bez2,ak suke kwn cmni!!..

ak n wana..

then ezmil!!!budak kecik cute!!!!muke putih cam kapas,prangai cam budak kot..ak suke!!!..ak suke tngok die pkai shawl,comel!!ak pnah tngok die dance lagu hoot snsd,siyes ak tkejut bile die bitau ak yg die hafal dnce move 2..cess,ak jelez!!die pnah pegi korea n india,ak jelez!!

haha

comel kan??hihi

haaa,hana plak..sejak sem2 ni,ak slalu pggil die you...main2 je,ade kisah dsebalik pggilan ini..hana cool..ak suke gaya die,muke die manis kot.n ak suke sakat die.hehe

photoshoot lam lab,sengal...ni wana n hana..hahaha

now it is time for alushiman!!ak pggil die paan,die slalu pggil ak ku syera..paan,skema r ko pggil ak cmtu!!..lawak do,hahaha..die ni encem n smart,mcm2 stail rmbut die..tp ak paling suke style yg die buat time awl sem2..skang rmbut da ubah plak for new year,siyes mcm taiko tp cool kot!!

one thing we have in common is we love english music!

die introduce kt ak lagu owl city-the saltwater room,bapak bez giler lagu 2!!it's one of my favourite song for now.

pastu die knalkan plak lagu owl city-tip of the iceberg,fuzzy blue light n on the wing..ak suke lagu2 2!!!!bez giler,deep meaning!!

kitoram penah share earphone dngar lagu time tngah tggu lab phy kt pjabat asasi,kitorang siap imagine pjabat asasi 2 jadi dancefloor..hahahaha

tp skarang die da kuar dri grup b2 pegi c4,sedih ak..paan!!smpai hati ko tinggal ak n wani!!haha

thanx paan for the song,i like it!!(ko punye ak cite pnjang sket sbab lame da xlepak ngan ko,special sket)

oke,ak suke style rmbut ni!!

finally usen a.k.a haji usen tempoyak,die ni emg nakal..ade ke die ckp ak n wani ni isteri die.ak die pggil darling,wani die pggil sayang..memg lawak r,usen suami xbtanggungjawab!!!hahaha
beg die cute,mcm kure2..hihi

usen sengal!!,haha

oke,dat's all..da ltih mnaip ni..tnpa korg palam emg xbez..1st thing ak suke about palam adalah sbab korang ade sbgai kwn ak,ak sayang korang!!!! ^_^

muke2 xleh bla,wani hana wana n ezmil!!